Over the past few days, I’ve been able to spend some time reflecting on my yoga teacher training journey but am struggling to put into words all of the magic and goodness I’ve experienced over the last month. For many years, I’ve hummed and hahhed whether I should do my teacher training, where to do it, and whether to choose an immersive program or one that stretched out over a few months. However, the timing never seemed right. I came up with excuses for myself as to why I couldn’t do it or why I wasn’t fit to be a yoga teacher. Time passed, I had spurts that I didn’t step on my mat for some time, and then learned to fall in love with yoga all over again.
The moment I decided to apply for my training was the moment I KNEW this was exactly what I was supposed to do. I still remember the exact moment I filled out the long application form and clicking the ‘submit’ button at the end. I guess you could say that’s when the nerves started kicking in a bit. Then I started telling myself that I probably wouldn’t get accepted into that specific program and whatever happened would happen for a reason. Well, a few weeks later I did get the answer I was hoping for and I knew at that very moment that I was going to Bali to become a yoga teacher *cue happy dance*.
The next few months leading up to the course were a blur. I told people about my trip but honestly it was like it didn’t actually sink in for me yet. The days were getting numbered and then it finally hit me. I’m leaving home for 2 months and travelling to the other side of the world by myself and following my hopes and dreams to become a yoga teacher.
And so the journey began. I travelled from PEI all the way to Bali by myself. I explored around the Kuta area before making my way to Ubud. In Ubud I made some monkey friends and seriously struggled with some loneliness and asked myself what the hell I was doing. From Ubud, I travelled to the Bloo Lagoon in Padangbai and that’s where everything started.
I met my new month long family and checked into my home away from home. I was nervous and scared but I had trust in the journey. I finally got the privilege to meet the two individuals that have been inspiring me since day 1 in my yoga practice and obviously had a bit of a fangirl moment. We were up early every morning for a 90 minute class and then had long lectures during the day and into the nights. I faced spiders bigger than my hand and had a run in with a python snake. We had the chance to immerse ourselves in some of the cultural traditions around the village and I now have a new appreciation for those who live in Bali. We laughed, we cried, we danced and we sang. I was pushed out of my comfort zone and I overcame my fears. I met lifelong friends that I will cherish forever. We filled our brains up with all the knowledge we could soak in and were then put to the test. We celebrated, we reflected and then finally.. we did it!
I blinked, and the month was over. Just like that. All of the love, hard work, dedication, sweat and tears that poured out of me over the past few weeks were then flowing back into me in the forms of love, gratitude, hope, and trust.
I’m searching for the correct words for this experience but all that comes to my mind is GRATEFUL. The early morning practices and long days filled with lectures taught me a lot of self discipline. The spiders, the snakes and all the creepy crawlies taught me that I’m strong and can overcome my fears if I try hard enough. Watching my yoga practice evolve and feeling not only physically stronger, but mentally as well. The beautiful sunrises and sunsets reminding me that each day is a gift in itself. The wonderful humans I was surrounded by proved that family doesn’t have to be by blood. Trusting myself and trusting my journey because following your heart is one of the most empowering things you can do. But most of all, reflecting and growing as a human. Opening my heart to a world of endless possibilities and being brave enough to shine through.
While I may not know what the future holds, one thing I do know is that wherever my yoga journey takes me, I will forever cherish this amazing journey.
You are loved, all is well.
Thank you for following along on one of the most exciting and life changing experiences of my life and be sure to stay tuned for lots of exciting things I have planned up my sleeve in the upcoming months!
With love and gratitude,
ANNDDDDDD just as a side note, the adventures do not end here!! Jess lands in BALI in 4 short days and I cannot even control my excitement. Five weeks without seeing my wife and I am going nutso. Stay tuned for some of our adventures throughout Bali (a short pit stop in Singapore) and then Thailand!!